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World AIDS Day !
December 1, 2010, 6:47 pm
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December 1st is always the time of year when the campus is buzzing with activities everywhere and also the time I’ll get a red ribbon and wear it on my jacket. Last night I helped put together and host the Dignitas Youth “Let’s Talk About AIDS” event inviting James Fraser, Alexis McDonald, and Paul Hamel to come speak about their works and student activism. The audience group was diverse and the questions, as you can imagine, were so engaging and thoughts that shook us to the very core. What made the event so amazing was that all three speakers brought various aspects to the issue that addressed everyone’s questions in a different way. I find that the time I spend discussing about other topics with Youth4Health is as equally engaging even if it’s based only on our cultural backgrounds. And it comforts me that more and more are becoming unafraid to discuss sensitive and controversial issues. Especially with AIDS where so much stigma is associated with it, we are all learning to become more vocal.

To celebrate World AIDS Day, I took part in the “The Red Ribbon Dance” video arranged by the University of Toronto International Healh Program (UTIHP) playing a classic hand game with my boyfriend with using red folders. Probably something you remember playing if you were a girl back in elementary school. Let’s all unite and share our compassion with those living with AIDS. Wear red and come out to King’s College Circle today at 3pm and be part of the biggest red ribbon on campus!

(You can find me in this video starting at 1min 40s ūüėÄ )


(This was also a post I made for the Youth4Health website which you can check out here.)

WHY? #1 PMH Family & Patient Library
November 25, 2010, 1:08 am
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As a way to keep many informed of just the types of services that are offered to everyone, I’ve decided to do a 10 reasons (or less) why you should visit a particular place. Hopefully that will not only be concise but help you find information that will tailour to your needs. And my first candidate for the beginning of my “WHY?” series having visited it recently,

5 reasons why you should visit the Princess Margaret Hospital Family and Patient Library

1. Being a cancer-oriented hospital, they carry almost every brochure there is for cancer-related illnesses. Don’t speak English? Don’t fret just yet. They have it in many languages, such as French, Spanish, Portuguese, Chinese, Korean, and Hindi just to name a few.

2. Some of the books that people come take out are healthy habits/diets. You can only imagine their vast selection for such a small library.

3. Lots and lots of DVD’s (or even video cassettes if you still own a VCR) that will help in understanding the type of cancer-illness you may have. A good majority of them are interactive!

4. Computers with free-internet access while you may be waiting around in the hospital to find information that you may need. Of course be courteous of the amount of time you spend on it if others are in need of the computer too.

5. If there is something that you can’t find, ask the librarian for a form where you can fill it out to get a well-tailored information package. The librarian will search for places/websites that will provide what you are looking for and have it ready for you to pick or send it you via e-mail.

6. I said there was only 5 but an extra one because I think it’s worth mentioning. The librarian, Michelle, is¬† approachable, warm and very informative. Even if you don’t really need to find information, take a little stroll down and say hi to the hard-working volunteers and Michelle!

(This was also a post I made for the Youth4Health website which you can check out here.)

Solidarity of the Suffering
November 20, 2010, 1:21 am
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This is my third year here at the University of Toronto and being in a life sciences related major, it’s becomes apparent, if not right when I entered then most certainly by now that most people when they here about us think we’re ruthless in a somewhat dog-eat-dog world. Of course there are exceptions but that seems to be the general portrayal being passed around. Having a few friends in engineering, I can only admire just how much of a close-knit community feeling they have with each other. But I couldn’t for the longest time wrap my mind around why? It wasn’t until I was talking to a good friend of mine on the topic of suffering. And using the engineers as an example in our discussion, it’s normal for most if not all to be failing below a 60% but it’s still not the end of the world for them. But how is that close-knit feeling harvested from failing? Perhaps if we looked back to the basic human suffering we can find that answer. Okay, I’m going on a huge tangent here that seems nothing related to health but hear me out. I think it’s through human suffering that is what brings solidarity between all of us. And one example that depicts this clearly is cancer.

For centuries we never knew it existed but now we realize it continually encompasses such a large population of the world. Breast cancer has progressively shown just how much suffering can bring us all together, whether you are living with it, a close loved one or even someone you had just met and diagnosed the next day. And just these two words alone in a conversation with a stranger brings an immediate unspoken connection. On the official launch date of the Youth4Health group, standing at the new ELLICSR space in the basement of the Toronto General Hospital listening to Scott answer my questions about the Cancer Survivorship Program at PMH made me realize this solidarity from suffering all the more. Did you know that there was no real¬† survivorship program for cancer patients prior to this one that was just implemented five years ago? I think it all started with group of passionate people that got together and realized what was lacking and the real support needed to be given patients outside of treatment and the doctors office. From our icebreakers and sharing, I strongly believe that some type of suffering brought all 7 us together to form a subgroup of the Youth4health. We’ve all experienced suffering in some form or another, as a victim or a personal witness. Either way, I’m sure a few of those moments have shaped the way we are and the way we see our lives.

Recently, I just learned that someone that I work with had to discontinue their studies to take care of their mother who had just gotten back positive biopsy samples for breast cancer. No one expected it, but suffering happens. And the mother will never look at life the same way again but I admire my colleague for the dedication and compassion. But this is one story out of several others that exist out there. Because of suffering, we try to make the best of the situation and continually improve patient outcomes through research, support groups,etc. Like the people that help launched the PMH Cancer Survivorship Program, I couldn’t be more excited to be part of something so moving and contribute to their work. Jill has worked hard to find a unique group to come together and I sincerely think all 7 of us have something equally special to bring to this project from our life experiences. Solidarity.

(This was also a post I made for the Youth4Health website which you can check out here.)

Balloon Girl

I’m the Fundraising Coordinator for this year’s Dignitas Team at U of T St. George. We held a Race for Dignity event last week, Feb 4th,¬† to help fundraise and raise awareness for the HIV/AIDS pandemic in the MSB lobby. A 12-hour Bike-a-thon event. No, you don’t bike 12 hours straight. You come in and book what time you want to ride with a team. We had an awesome bake sale, and those that bought something would know. The prizes were even more awesome. I pulled in some great donations from Lush (A Hat Box FILLED with soap and salt goodness), Umbra gift cards, a signed Maple Leafs Hockey Stick (I took a picture to remember my hard work for the stick), and more of course. Those who didn’t participate, you truly missed out but don’t FRET, there’s still next year. Raised quite a bit of money and relieved¬† to know it’s going to the right place.
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Every Sunday
January 19, 2010, 1:09 am
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give your heart, but not the empty rituals. He won’t want your flowers.

(Sunday-Rob Bell)


After 5 days of freedom from my last exam in early may, I kicked myself straight back into school for the summer and some massive volunteering. I am thoroughly excited in taking bio during this summer as I am really developing an interest in the material that’s being taught. The more I dive into the sciences, the more I am struck with awe of the whole complexity. Volunteering has been a thrill learning all the techniques and especially the jargon. My summer has been busy and exciting in the educational aspect but I am pushing myself towards exhaustion.

Rushing from one place to another, I’ve began to plan things around myself, a lot. It’s easy to justify your faults especially arriving late with such a tight schedule that you have made the effort because you did indeed ‘rush’. But really, the highest priority on the list is none other than yourself. It’s not far from a person that is self-absorbed.¬† It incredibly easy to get lost in your hectic schedule that you being to forget the meaning of all and your priorities. I think I almost lost sight of it until Ted pointed it out to me. Selfishness is one of the things that I struggle to admit because I am in a strong denial that I don’t care about others more than myself. Evolutionary speaking, it is inherent for us to be selfish for our own survival, the whole idea of ‘darwinian fitness’. That doesn’t cut it. Altruism does exist among those that may or may not be related with expected benefits for both parties. But I believe in selflessness that doesn’t involve calculating the costs and benefits and this is something that I’m trying to learn as a growing Christian. The more I analyze the little details of my life, I can see the little subtle things that I do and unknowingly do as a habit that really is selfish. As stubborn as I am sometimes to change when I am given the opportunities to learn selflessness, I am repenting and working on it.

I’m beginning to realize how important it is to take a day of Sabbath to really help recharge and put your life back into the right perspective. It’s a time to really let yourself tune out all of that noise in your life and really listen for His voice. As students, we’re so caught up and worried about our GPA¬† and planning our future career that our achievements become our worth. We become defined by our marks, wealth, our prestigious professions and successes. What is left of you when all of that is stripped away? Naked in shame? I am learning to not let myself be defined by my successes because I am not only setting my expectations on a higher pedestal but I’m creating this ‘SuperYi-Min’ that I begin to live by. Failing to achieve it will make you depressed, frustrated, and perhaps more driven to get it. What’s even worse is when your parents create this superwhatever for you and set this as your own goal. dYou will become exhausted, burned out, fall hard on your failures all to attain such an unhealthy and superficial goal. It’s beyond discouraging. Your superwhatever will kill you. The meaning of my life is not defined by my SuperYi-Min. Should yours?

“And the only way to not be killed by it is to shoot it first. Yes, that is what I meant to write. You have to kill your superwhatever. And you have to do it right now. Because your superwhatever will rob you of today and tomorrow and the next day until you take it out back and end its life. Go do it.” – Rob Bell from Velvet Elvis

Goodbye SuperYi-Min.

The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing
April 26, 2008, 11:49 pm
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God let the suffering old man go through with it up to the point where He knew there would be no retreat, and then forbade him to lay a hand upon the boy. To the wondering patriarch He now says in effect, “It’s all right, Abraham. I never intended that you should actually slay the lad. I only wanted to remove him from the temple of your heart that I might reign unchallenged there. I wanted to correct the perversion that existed in your love. Now you may have the boy, sound and well. Take him and go back to your tent. Now I know that thou fearest God, seeing that thou hast not withheld they son, thine only son, from Me.” Continue reading